Things at the moment are grand.

I have been in contact with that kid from school that also blogs, and it seems as like we are not too different. We talked for ages , about school, cars, hobbies, common stuff and interests, and we even touched on friendships. It was a very delicate subject for me, as I haven’t had too much experience on the matter, but it was good a change of pace.

Speaking of friends, he introduced me to a couple of his close friends. They all seem to be really kind and respect me so much. I have never felt like I have before around these people, and they give me a sense of belonging in my time of need.

Things seem to be turning around.

I am starting to feel more confident with myself and starting to realize what I have been missing. Although, I cannot understand why I couldn’t bring myself up to make friends, it is certainly a thing of the past.

News about the family. They seem to have settled their differences and everything is going back on track. I also introduced them to blogging and they have become active members themselves. I have showed them my blog and now they seem to understand how I feel. We sat down a talked for once in a long time and I truly felt like I belonged in this family.

Thanks to blogging, which started out as a one off experience, has made me into something I could’ve never imagined. I now feel like I belong, and found a new sense of community.

— On a side note whenever you feel like a laugh, try this

http://www.youtube.com/v/a1Y73sPHKxw

Thanks for everyone’s support in making me what i am today.

Roger.

Wow, I cannot believe how hits I’ve been getting, and even the emails. This is certainly reassuring that there are people that understand me and don’t view me differently, thank-you.

 

I could not believe that someone from my school got into contact with me. I now feel like I’m starting to belong in this world, just from a simple post. I started very pessimistic about this whole blogging thing, but now I can see why people use blogs to connect to other people, just like I did to find a way out to the world.

 

Today I went to school with a sense of well-being, but the place still troubles me. The online community is a lot different than real life; everyone just doesn’t seem to understand how I feel.

 

I tried to be a part of the class today by contributing to discussions and putting my hand up to answer questions, but I was too afraid to how everyone was going to react to me. I didn’t want them to put me further aside from my current situation. I didn’t say anything, I was too scared, I don’t know what’s wrong with me. More proof that the real world has something against me.

 

I feel lost, no one understands me.

 

The parental unit has been fighting again and there is no way I am getting into their problems, I have enough of my own. *sigh*

 

Just another day goes by in my pants.

 

Roger.

 

*In response to the comment*

 

Thanks for the comment.

 

My problem really at the moment is that I can’t find a sense of belonging. Whether it is at school or home, I seem to get no attention, no appreciation for who I am. A lot of people don’t understand that about me. In the same case as yourself both my home and school life affects each other and is very pressuring.

 

I believe the blogging community is so big because I think so many people need to release pressures and feels in a non-frontal way, and it is interesting to see how other people view their worlds and experiences.

Heres an example of a former drug addict trying to educate people about drugs.

 

http://sunnybunny.globalstudent.org.au/   

 

There is a lot out there, and seeing other peoples experiences can be somewhat reassuring to a person like myself.

I found out about this community of blogging in the news, they explained how so many people have been have been doing it and how it can build self esteem to young people, but letting out your feelings in an online public environment is not very reassuring, I didn’t know how people were going to react to my sad life. At first I was very spectacle about telling people how I feel, but I did some research and have found that there so many people that share some of the same problems as me, even some that go to my school.

 

Btw, I’m Roger, and I’m using these blogs as a place of refuge from the troubles I face in the real world. I currently attend school and am trying to find some reasons to stay at the place. My school is a terrible place, why, because it reminds me every day of how pathetic my life really is. No friends, low grades and hard times are what I find every time I enter the gates, and I think this is just start of what I expect to be the rest of my days. I don’t fit in at school, I get teased and bullied for not having any friends, I feel sad a lot of the time and can never find motivation.

 

Home life is the same, when I’m not realizing how sad my life is, I just sit around home waiting for a purpose to slap me in the face. For now I feel no need to carry out goals or dreams because I have no way to achieve them. I wish the parental unit would just cared more about me. I don’t think they understand me, but I’m too afraid to tell them why. How would they react, I’m not sure, it’s just me and blogging for now. They always fight about each other and how they are getting “pulled under by pressures of life”; if anything I’m just in it for the ride.

 

I don’t know if ill blog again, but this has certainly helped to express how I feel atm. We’ll see. Maybe this is the first of things to come…

 Roger.